Monday 7 April 2014

Frustrated !! We doing the same part and if you dont want to do it just tell me. stop wasting people's time !! i gave you the things that you wanted, all you need is just make it into charts so that i can analyze from your charts ... 5 hours later you sent me a file which ONLY included 2 charts . WTF !! 5 hours only 2 charts, are you kidding or something ?! I waited for 5 hours not for these okay .. 8 interviewee's answer but only can get 2 charts from there? Just admit you're lazy !! see now what .. because of you, I cant sleep and have to analyze everything in the midnight ... did you ever care about others? sent me at midnight and now i have to rush everything .. Fucker !! even told me you watched videos and updated than me .. so you watching videos and playing around in that 5 hours la dude? I dun care updated or not please, do your work la shit !! told me you're updated with your smiley face .. slap you fucker !!

Wednesday 19 February 2014

态度问题就是态度问题。

不要认为每个人想的东西跟你会一模一样!你说功课不见面在网上讨论就行,但我认为功课应该要面对面讨论。现在造成一些重点有变没有,请觉悟问题是出在哪里呢?

不要自以为很厉害,在大家面前邀功。
这是所有人的功课,大家都有付出,不要比较你做的比较多就在那里放话。

你没有来,应该问问看其他人功课怎样,还是进行到怎样。这是最基本的不是吗?为什么现在反问我们,我们没有告诉你最近的状况。你以为你是谁啊?

我缺席的时候,又不见你像你说的那样,要告诉没有来的人怎样怎样。
我是问你们进行到怎样,你们才开口。要不然功课没了都不知道!只想到自己!

不要给我摆脸色看,我不是你的仇人或欠你钱。
你不爽说出来。我生出来不是看你脸色做人的,而且看也看够了!适可而止。

人家告诉你了,你自己有问题又不要问。
现在问题出现了,你却责怪别人说得不够详细,导致你做错。
你是哪里有毛病啊?!差劲~~

Monday 17 February 2014

我的最爱。

星期日,相信我身边的所有人都知道我是有合唱团练习的。
星期日是我最重要最不能失去的日子。是我唯一能解压,看见我心爱的小朋友,做我爱做(唱歌)的一天。是可以让我感觉到幸福和开心的一天!

但昨天,竟然成为我最伤心的一天。
我们将要在4月表演,当所有人的态度让我不堪入目。
RJC 本来就是一个团体,说是合唱团,但都是自己唱自己的,我看不见一体!
老师的用心和耐心教导,却得不到回报。没有进步,反而退步。
我不知觉地心里愤怒。

我在合唱团超过十年了。十年不容易,我从一窍不通但爱唱歌小孩长大,现在成为教导及教育小朋友的领导人。我的使命很大,我也很乐意为这个使命付出。毕竟我在这里有很多回忆,想培育未来人才的想法有很深很大很多。

至少60名的孩子,都待了2年以上,甚至到10年也有。可以说我看着他们长大,看着他们成长。但为什么我的用心和其他人的用心,小孩却感受不到。各式各样的坏习惯展示出来(老师面前按电话,打瞌睡,不张口唱歌等)我心里流泪!老师一再重复同一个地方,为什么就是故意要做错?!什么时候了,还给我发小孩子脾气!练习时间都不到5次就要彩排了,还要这样吗?!

看不见应有的态度,我很愤怒。你们都是我心爱的孩子们呀,为什么?我们不希望用责骂或惩罚的方式来对待,但为什么要让我们忍无可忍!我流着泪,用很愤怒很严厉的方式责骂了他们。告诉他们,表演是肯定做不成!要他们退出合唱团不要影响别人,不要浪费其他人的时间和用心!眼泪无法停止。。。口头上是在责骂,但心理上是很心疼。我从来没有这样责骂孩子们过。我想要他们进步,成长,觉悟。。。看见孩子哭了,我更加不忍心。

要求了我想要看到的,大家都答应了。希望不要让我一再失望。
你们是我的最爱啊~不要让我后悔白费做了这件事。。。

Monday 10 February 2014

The more I think, The more confused I am

He touched me again ..
Yes, I admit I felt happy and surprised but in the same time I felt uneasy too ..
I do not know why everytime he saw me or we having the same class .. he will did that
I know its nothing .. its just a small touch .. pointing your shoulder, shake your hand, measuring your hand size and so on .. I do not think its nothing ... maybe, I hope its "something" hiding behind the actions.

Maybe, I care too much about him. If is someone else, I might not think that way.
                                             
So, please stop. I'm confused.

Wednesday 29 January 2014

The Little Mermaid

The Little Mermaid (from the perspective of the prince - tutorial exercise)

I’m celebrating my birthday on my ship. Everyone was having fun but it’s nothing special for me anymore as I have been celebrating it every year since the day I born, I’m used to it. I went out to catch some fresh air and flee myself with the wind and waves. Then, I saw something shiny far under the sea, I thought it was the reflection of my ship’s lighting. I did not bother at first but it coming closer and closer. When I look closer with tip toe, I fell into the sea.

Next day, I woke up in a temple. A girl from the temple came and greet me. I try to recall back what had happened. My ship sank due to a great storm, but before that…“Oh yeah! I saw a mermaid!” “I can’t believe I saw a mermaid!” Then, I hesitated. “This must not be true” “But then again I saw it with my own eyes!” I try to recall carefully. “Yes, the mermaid was real and … she is so beautiful.” I can never forget the ever first moment that I look at her, her beauty had engraved in my mind. “She saved me from drowning?”

A week after, my father, the king forced me to marry the girl from the temple, which he believed was the girl thar saved me on my birthday that day and also the main reason is that she is from the royals. I tried to refuse and did a lot of rebellious actions to go against my father as I could not forget the mermaid, the stunning girl I saw swimming under the sea. My eager and desire to meet her again were just beyond my control. “I think I’m deeply falling in love with her, a girl that I do not know who she is.” However, I cannot do anything but be obedient my parents. I’m the prince but I have no freedom, a freedom to marry the girl I loved. I’m disappointed and mad at myself. I walked by the seashore in the middle of the night, wishing she would appear in front of me again from the bottom my heart. “Please let me see you again.” I wished with a grieved heart.

The day has arrived. All the royals are dancing gracefully on my wedding. Suddenly, a good-looking girl appeared from nowhere, dancing stunningly in between, she dances like no one else. She charms the whole court with her dancing. Everyone give out their places prominently and attracted to this charming beautiful girl as well. I walked towards her and befriend her but she cannot communicate except her eyes and gestures. 

“What a beautiful blue watery eyes she got!” “But why I felt pain through her eyes?” “It inadvertently makes my heartache too.”

“Wait a minute! You look familiar. Did I meet you somewhere before?” She is not answering me. “Oh my goodness! Is her!!” “How can I take such a long time to recognize her?” “Nice to meet you, my mermaid.” I greeted her from my heart. I smiled at her, she smiled back at me. A brilliant smile that cannot be described into any framework of language.

“Now, let’s welcome our prince and princess!” my father announced to everyone proudly. Her eyes already filled with sadness and tears. “Oh baby, don’t cry. I love you more than anyone else.” “I knew it was you that day, you saved my life.” Now, I believed even more that we were deeply in love with each other. However, our inevitable fates separated us apart. The fate of us crashes my heart and crumble down. “Although I’m marrying another woman but please remember my heart forever with you. I know my love will be remembered so please don’t cry, give me chilling laughter instead of hot tears.”

Next day morning will be my wedding ceremony but I cannot put myself to sleep so I decided to wake up at the midnight, look up to the sky. The moonbeam reminds me your shining smile. Then I walked to the seashore again and I saw a batch of mermaids swim to me, they were your sisters. They told me that you have drank a potion that offered from The Sea Witch to rid yourself of your tail and grow legs but it will cause you in horrendous pain when you walk or dance. My tears start to fall down slowly on my cheeks. I cannot imagine how pain are you in when you dancing in front of me. You even had given out your voice to The Sea Witch. “How much sacrifices and risks you have taken up for me?”  They even told me you will only gain a human soul if I marry you. Otherwise, you will die and not live the normal mermaid lifespan of 300 years. I cannot stand it anymore. I kneel down and cry out loud like a baby. “I love you but I can’t marry you, what should I do?” I am so mad and angry at myself of being such a coward to against my father and sacrifice. My heart breaks.

I knew she could become a mermaid again if she uses the magical knife to kill me and let my blood touches her legs. I think this is the only thing I can do for her which is to let her murder me. I went back to my castle and go back to my bed without fear. “Even if I take a brutal action, I can manage if it was for you so please don’t hesitate when you come to me, I will give myself to you, and I will protect you!” I cried myself into sleep.

Next day, the early sunlight came down and brightened up my room. A blinding force that reminds me of her comes down. She did not kill me instead throws herself into the sea and dissolves into sea foam. She becomes a spirit daughter of the air who will gain an immortal soul after 300 years, a spirit that lives in the sky. 

Wednesday 22 January 2014

干啊~

我不是要骂粗口的意思。
只是,觉得自己真的需要“爱情”的滋润。噗哈哈!!
我完全没有想过我会这样说出口。
我人生完了!!!

他的接触,他的开口,他的一举一动。。
都很引人注目 ((应该说我很注意才对~

天啊~给点指示吧~是不是他啊?